sleepy sheep

listen. i'm updating this now because i'm starting to feel exhausted, and i don't know if i'm ever going. to make it. back. home. please. i'm going on a walk tonight with ms paschen for my aching back. they say it helps you. i guess. but what if you have aching knees?

maybe i should drive. real slowly, alongside. i could roll down the window and we could talk.

here's something: i prayed to God this morning and asked that all my appointments this morning go easy. and guess what? they did. you're the man, G. er, the Man. God and Man? Together. God With Us.

ooookay. allllllllllright.

something else: has anyone noticed that radio stations seem to have made some deal with the forces of darkness and have promised to serve the devil forever by always, without failure, playing certain songs all the time? i'm not talking the same songs every hour, i'm talking these certain songs that just keep coming up. i distinctly remember these gems coming on the radio when they were brand new, and that was definitely ten years ago at least. every time these things come on, i always say, often aloud: "we meet again, fucker."

i'm going to have to stop doing this when i have kids.

anyway, here's a list i have complied so far in my brain. feel free to add or subtract:

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3AM (matchbox 20)

that song by 3 doors down where if he goes crazy, well, will you still call him superman?

everything you want by vertical horizon. oh Laws, no.

smooth by "santana," which really means "rob thomas," which really means "it's 3AM i must be lonely"

hootie and the blowfish eternally telling me to let her cry, dammit, if it eases all her pain--or, in the alternative, that he and i come from different worlds. i like to laugh at him when he looks at other girls. something about the miami dolphins making him cry. that's fine. i'll let him cry, if the tears fall down like rain.

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here's the part where you stop me by saying "but Cat, why don't you just use your ipod? you can hook it up to the radio with that thingy on the top and then you wouI KNOW THAT OKAY? IT MAKES ME NERVOUS SOMETIMES TO CARRY IT AROUND LEAVE ME ALONE.

alright. listen, i don't know what happened with the font situation here. it just started suddenly or something i don't know. so i'm leaving.

i just have to make it forty more minutes. i have to start getting more sleep.