maybe i'll think of it

it's been half-hearted lately, hasn't it? writing in this space just to keep up appearances, sitting here in my education law class, the class that has turned out to be a waste of time and moved through in sort of a fog. all i do is work my work and school my school, and i don't connect with anyone by any means other than mentally these days. as reluctant as i am to admit it, i like learning with my hands more than my head. i miss putting my hands on things, on shoulders and upper arms and faces and backs, and i don't mean in a way that would cause talk--though i miss that too, of course--i just mean an actual touch. what's the word for that? there is one, but i've forgotten it.