broody bear

today i am a brooding little bear. i stop just short of swiping with my paws.

i also love the word brooding very much, as when you're doing it, there's no better description.

i'm not sure why the brooding. i have some fun things to do tonight. a veritable spread, if you will. the engine of my life is slowly creaking and turning back up towards the speed at which it usually runs, albeit only sometimes smoothly. and i am glad about that, at least. there is something very exciting and altogether terrifying about beginnings. this year is my last here at school, and towards this degree, and maybe most probably my last to have this sort of academic life. that's mostly nice to think about, but also very sad. you know how loss goes, always around like second-hand smoke.

it's like an icebox in here. welcome first-year law students!

tonight is the mentor/mentee dinner. some luckly soul gets to have reheated pasta and iceburg lettuce drenched in italian dressing with me tonight while they ask me questions like "what's so-and-so class? how much work do i need to do for it? is it hard? is SBA fun? should i join?" and i will say things along the lines of yes and no and maybe and you'll just have to see for yourself, won't you? but of course i won't say that very last part, because i will be all smiles and jokes and buddy-buddying until i can finally get the hell out of there. it takes a little time to get back into it all, but eventually i can do it without feeling nauseous.