something about the holidays and whatever else

you know what's nice about this life? all the people and the families and the, well, of course i have to use this word, communities i get to be a part of. that's what's nice about this life. even when i feel very separated from them, or very distant, whether in words or in physical space. it is what it is--the fact that i feel separated from something just naturally precedes the fact that i feel that way to begin with, that i am a part of it, yes? some bit of me feels as if i'm only imagining such things but then, well, i always was a pessimist. a doubter, maybe that's better.

tomorrow i plan and plan and plan, for God's sake, to be across the street and doing some work for professor triple threat, so i can finish her work and then continue my work with flordia, the state after and below georgia.

did you know i have just thought of moving first and first and foremost, and then and only then having the job? that's true, it is. to various places, i admit, but those places all being good. we are trained and brought up with these versions of ourselves that may never be but still noble to attain to. how's that, then?

i have had the good and great fortune to be a part of many families, and even in just a little bit under a quarter of a century! families of all kinds, even--those without both parents or brothers or sisters or whatever you wish, those that i was able to meet through works and schools and friends, and on and on on on. i have spent every holiday with these families, and soon i will reprise that role once again, and it is a good and great and nice thing, i will tell you that much, right now when i can see clearly for the first time in weeks(!)--that is a wonderful thing. i thank God i have these chances to be such a part of the things people love the most, rather than sitting on the point that i wish i had my own exclusive family with no.....well. let's leave that direct object to your own initiative. i am sure you would do better than i, really.

now! it is time to steal cars!