going to be = am

so, i'm thinking about buying some vintage video games. i've never done anything like that before, so i'm nervous. and i'm nervous about buying things from people i don't know, but then again, i do that all the time. which gets me to thinking how weird that is. we have so much trust, don't we? we trust that the soap we buy isn't going to burn our skin and it'll make us clean and smell nice, we trust that the food we eat won't kill us and not be rotten, a million things.the blindess we don't mind between us and them.

i'm waiting to go out to dinner with my parents, who continue not to pressure me into getting a job after law school but still manage to stress me the fuck out on occasion. they are blind to things, not willingly but unknowingly and lovingly, if you can believe that.

i smell like coffee. i'm going to be late.